Happy Valentines Day!

 

 

                A lot has happened since last Valentine’s Day. Last year on Valentine’s Day we woke up early and started heading to Boise for my appointment. After weeks of getting IM (intramuscular) hormone injections it was time to do invitro again. My sister in law and her two kids traveled with us, mainly to keep Tyler company while I was on bed rest. We were optimistic that this time would work; it was Valentine’s Day after all! About the time we had past Pocatello I received a phone call from my doctor, which was unusual because I usually talked to the nurses. She had some bad news, while unfreezing our frozen embryos we only had one survive the process and to make it even worse the embryo that survived was not our best egg. She advised that we bag it. (She said it in a more doctor like manner of course.)  I talked her into implanting it anyway, we were already on our way and I had not just gotten IM injections for the last month two to three times a day for nothing! Needless to say my hormones were doing the talking. I got off the phone told Tyler what was happening and started to cry. Thank goodness for Tyler, he cheered me right up and reminded me that we were only suppose to think happy thoughts this round! So after my personal cheerleader changed the mood we started to call our little egg “Nemo”, and decided that it was going to be ok after all.  We went to the appointment, everything went great and then I spent the evening in a medicated haze while Tyler took his sister out for the evening.  We stayed with my brother in laws mom and she treated us like family the second we walked in the door. I was treated like a princess and basically didn’t have to do one thing for myself. We had a great week getting to know them and building memories that we will always remember, thank you so much “D” and “D”.

                As you have probably guessed by now, invitro, once again, did not work for us. We don’t regret giving it a try, we learned a lot about each other. (Although it would be nice to have our money back.) Not many people knew we were trying invitro, just our friends and family.  It was something we did in private, this is the first time I have talked about it publicly, and even now I’m having second thoughts whether to share this on our very public blog.  Hopefully it will show how ready and willing we are to start our family through adoption. And not just because nothing else has worked, but because we realized how important having family is. We would not have made it through the last year without our friends and families support. From the encouraging words, to prayers, to being willing to give me a shot in the butt! Yes, you heard right, it is extremely hard, but not impossible, to give yourself an IM injection in your gluteus maximus.  Good thing I’m a nurse and worked with plenty of people who already had the right skills. Nurse “A” gave me my first one, she is super nice and doesn’t like to hurt anybody so when I handed her the honey like substance in a syringe with an 18 gauge needle I thought she might back out.  And my brave sister in law was taught by my friend “C” to give me the shots in the evening. I tried to teach Tyler, but it didn’t go well. He has many skills but giving shots is not one of them, he does not like needles.  ;)       
               
               If we have learned anything the past year it is that there is no limit to the amount of love that our hearts can hold, family is not determined by blood alone, and to cherish every day we have.  We know there is a special mother and child out there that is waiting to become part of our family. We will continue to wait patiently for you to come into our lives at the right time.  

            
               In the meantime, we celebrated Valentines Day just the two of us. We ate at our favorite Thai restaurant and stopped by Sammy’s  for dessert.  (A shake with a piece of pie mixed in, they are yummy, this is the second time we have gottent one, I’m sure they aren’t healthy for you.) We were in for a surprise, free entertainment, a poetry slam. Neither one of us had been to a poetry slam before, it was a unique experience.  We had a great night and we hope you did too!